Delving into Colour

Growing up, I was the “skinny jeans and T-Shirt” girl 24/7.  Fashion wasn’t really something that interested me… Don’t get me wrong, I wanted my clothes to look nice, but I wasn’t really that into having my own “style” or being particularly “fashionable”.  I appreciated a good look on other people, but there was something inside of me that told me I could never pull it off.

Going through secondary school, clothes weren’t all that important to me, mainly because I was wearing a uniform 5 days a week and on those other 2 days I wasn’t really going out as much as I do now.  However, once I got to sixth form, and I was wearing my own clothes every single day of the week, (amongst a bunch of girls who did, in fact, know their style and look amazing) I started to figure out what I liked wearing.  

I went through a variety of problems, mentally, during sixth form, and I would say I spent a good chunk of my time feeling pretty worthless and trying as hard as I could to blend into the background.  Therefore, it’s unsurprising that my clothing reflected that too.  Almost everything I wore was black: skirts, tops, trousers, big baggy black jumpers, heavy black eyeliner.  And if it wasn’t black, it was white or grey; there was no real colour, only monochrome.  It soon became my identity, with recurring jokes made by both me and my friends about the lack of colour in my wardrobe.  I took black clothing as my “style”, because it meant that I had something that was mine, but honestly, it was my attempt to stand out as little as possible.

However, in the last few years I have learnt to be so much more comfortable with who I am as a person.  It’s not like I live to be the centre of attention – I don’t think I’ll ever be that person – but my goal is no longer to disappear.  I’m proud of myself and my body and I want to look nice for me, so developing a personal style has been a constant goal of mine for the past few years.  My wardrobe is brighter and more colourful, I have more pride in what I wear, and I genuinely feel like I look happier.  Don’t get me wrong, there’s absolutely nothing wrong with dressing in black all the time, and it’s not like I actively avoid it.  However, for me, it wasn’t just an outfit choice, it was my way of making myself nothing, and it’s safe to say that I’m done with that.

It’s weird how little changes that seem shallow and artificial can have much deeper meanings.  Obviously, not everything in life does, but for me, this was one of those things that meant more than it seemed, and I’m excited to see where my style journey goes from here.

How would you describe your personal style?  Let me know in the comments

Lots of love,

Jas xx



11 thoughts on “Delving into Colour

  1. jennyinneverland says:

    I definitely don’t have a personal style anymore; I go for comfort over anything really and definitely don’t follow any sort of fashion trend! When I was a teen I went through the Grunger and Emo phase and REALLY got into it haha!


  2. Sakshi Raina says:

    I think it’s the opposite for me. While I was in school -I was so pissed because all I wore was a uniform. I wanted so bad to wear the clothes that I liked, so I wore over-the-top clothes when I went out with family and friends. Major fashion fail. It’s only later when I went to college and I tried different styles, I reliased what I should wear and found my fashion identity.

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  3. Annie 🌸🌿 (@AnnieChanieBlog) says:

    I could relate to this post so much! My wardrobe used to be only black, white and grey. Now it’s all pastels! I’ve definitely tried to be more adventurous with my fashion and clothing choices. I think it’s nice that you’re choosing to add more colour to your outfits. It sounds like you’re doing a really great thing for yourself! Great post!

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  4. daydreamsandcynicism says:

    I’m glad you’re more comfortable within yourself and are now able to truly relax and find your style! I also have a pretty monochromatic wardrobe and while I’m definitely not wild about drawing attention to myself this is the colour scheme I personally prefer. I quite like a nice print, but I’m quite picky about the types and styles of prints haha

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  5. lifeofshar says:

    I totally get that wearing dark colours makes you feel like you’ll blend in, I used to do this at college, simply because I couldn’t afford to dress how all my friends dressed at that time, I would wear the dullest of clothes to not draw any attention to myself (thinking about it now I don’t see the logic haha) but I am glad you feel more comfortable with your style! How you dress can massively boost and bring down your confidence so it is always amazing to wear what you want and feel comfortable! xx

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