I am Braver than I Think.

Recently, I’ve done a lot of looking back on the person I am now compared to the person I was a year ago, and noted my growth.  I’ve grown in confidence, ambition, workload, and the way that I see myself, but at the root of it all, I’m still a little coward at heart.

Going to Morocco and doing all these activities that were planned by my friend was hard for me, because at the end of the day I’m such an introvert.  For me, that doesn’t mean I’m terrible at being around people – I actually really like being around people.  However, I also really like my alone time, and recharging inside, and staying well within my comfort zone… Morocco allowed no time for this.  There are a bunch of things that I never imagined myself doing and in Morocco I was forced to do a lot of them without really being able to back out.  Some of them I was really dreading, and some I genuinely thought would ruin my day… Then next thing I know, they were happening, I was loving them, and they ended up being my favourite things.

I feel like a lot of us have a boundary that when we get to the edge of, we completely shut down.  We see ourselves as someone who’s less amazing as we are and have less capabilities, and we convince ourselves that we can’t do things before they’ve even happened.  Over the last year or so, I’ve been so much more of a “yes” person, but that still has tended to involved emailing people, or going to events that are out of my comfort zone, but still have me cuddled up in bed by midnight.  I haven’t really had anything that’s brought me genuine doubt until now, and now I know that I am capable of more than I know.

I got really anxious before I went paddle boarding because I have a massive fear/hatred of the ocean and I’ve convinced myself that I’m terrible at physical sports.  I basically decided it wasn’t happening, and I was going to sit on the beach and watch as my friends did it, because that was where my comfort lay.  Getting on that board and into the ocean was one of the most terrifying things for me, and I wanted nothing less than to lose my balance and fall in (Which I was told would most definitely happen as a newbie).  However, next thing I knew, I was standing on a board paddling away, really enjoying myself and embracing the ocean.  That ended up being one of my absolute favourite days while I was out there, and looking back on how close I was to not doing it seems absolutely crazy now.

As I was quad biking through the dessert – another thing I was absolutely dreading – I realised that I stop myself from doing so many things for no real reason.  Thrill is a terrifying thing, but honestly, most of it is worth the rush.  From now on I’m going to work more on pushing myself past my limits.  I don’t know what will come of it, but I’m excited to see how I grow from it.

Let me know something brave you’ve done/wish to do in the comments!

Lots of love,

Jas xx

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10 thoughts on “I am Braver than I Think.

  1. Ocean Bream says:

    Paddle boarding! Now that is something I would love to do. I am half Moroccan and had no idea you could go paddle boarding in Morocco – am I going to all the wrong places? Haha. It is good that you tried the things you were afraid of. it helps you grow in so many ways! 🙂

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  2. GirlMasked says:

    Brilliant post! It’s definitely easy to stay in our comfort zones so big well done to you for pushing yourself. Sounds like Morocco was a great adventure! I’m definitely an introvert too and like some recharge time. You’ve definitely inspired me to try step out of my comfort zone more often!

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  3. CherishingFLo says:

    I went live this week. That was a BIG push for me! I have such huge anxiety about it and I thought I’d get on there and sound like a COMPLETE idiot. You are so awesome for pushing yourself! I also got on a roller coaster which was scary for me but I did it. Probably won’t do it again cause it was a TERRIBLE experience. But NEXT I want to go on a boat out onto the ocean because I have a fear of the ocean. I am so happy you got to do something like paddle boarding! That sounds like fun!

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