Sat at my computer today I had no idea what I wanted to write about… Honestly revision has left me with a very bad case of writers block, so I figured I’d just try and pin my current thoughts down in this post…
Exam season has always been a tricky one but I reckon this has probably been the most taxing one I’ve had so far. At school it was a lot easier: we had mocks and past papers and such a clear idea of what the exam would be like, so by the time it came to this point of the year things felt a lot less… confusing. However, this time around I feel a little… numb, it’s like revision has turned me into a machine: wake up, eat, revise, repeat.
I understand why we have exams; there are only so many ways you can attempt to measure how hard people have been working. However, I feel like the older I get the more I question whether exams are an accurate measure of my intelligence. I’m a humanities student, my whole degree is centred around analysing and writing, however I find myself panicking, trying to remember facts and quotes, because it feels like at the end of the day, my final grade is mostly riding on how much I can remember at a specific hour.
I’m not completely critiquing the exam system, I understand why they’re implemented, but I feel like I just end up briefly learning things to get a good grade, whereas the idealist in me wants to learn for the enjoyment of furthering my knowledge. There were GCSE’s that I managed to get high grades in because I crammed so hard and I learnt information without really understanding it. Does that mean that I am very smart when it comes to physics, for example? No, not at all, I don’t understand most of it, I just happened to work hard at remembering things for those exams.
I love learning. I actually love furthering my knowledge, but for me, examinations have taken part of the joy out of it for me. I don’t know… when it comes to education I can see the flaws in the system but I also have no better ideas so I guess I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place…
Did this have a cohesive train of thought? Probably not, but it was me spilling word vomit onto a page haha, hope you got something from this? Feel free to leave your thoughts and comments below, I’m happy to engage in debate!
Lots of love,