At the end of December I talked about how much my life has come to revolve around my phone and how that desperately needed to change. In a post entitled ‘Phone Free’ (which you can find here) I declared that every day until the end of January I would switch my phone off for 2 hours each day and see if it improved my anxiety and my overall mental well-being. As promised in that post, here is my end of the month update…
I’m not going to lie… it started off being quite a difficult task, but not for the reasons that I expected. This little experiment made me realise that as a people pleaser, disappearing for 2 hours left me worried that somebody would need me and then hate me for not being around. However, I slowly began to realise that being unable to contact for a couple of hours is not going to do anyone any harm. My closest friends know that I’ll always be there for them, and me not replying for a couple of hours is not going to destroy the foundation of friendship we already have, my friends understand I have a life, because they do to… but I tend to forget this.
I think one noticeable difference with this whole thing was the fact that I was more productive; I began filling my time with things to do to distract myself from the fact that I couldn’t use my phone. I wrote and scheduled blog posts, revised more for my exams, went to the gym a lot more, went out with friends a lot, tried Pilates, even got back into writing a little. Sometimes I ignore the world around me because I’m too focused on the screen in front of me, but those 2 hours a day brought me back to reality, which I think I really needed.
Thanks to this month of making an effort to spend less time on my phone, I genuinely feel a lot less dependent on it. When I go out somewhere I find myself checking my phone less, and when I’m sitting in my room doing work it doesn’t have to be by my side. I went to go see La La Land in cinema the other day (you can read my thoughts on it here if you want to) and I didn’t think about my phone once. Even after the movie I didn’t rush to check it… and that’s a big step for me. I used to use my phone a lot as a crutch, but proving I can spend 2 straight hours away from it everyday proved that I don’t need that crutch, I can stand on my own.
Would I do this again? I don’t think I need to. I needed this month to remember that my phone is not attached to me, but now that I’ve done it I feel so much more free. I can now distance myself from my phone voluntarily, without having to set a timer and switch it off. This month got me into some new habits phone-wise, and I really needed that. If you, like me, have a problem with putting your phone down and it’s starting to make you feel a little anxious, I highly recommend trying this out! It may be hard at first, but you will ultimately feel better for it.
Thanks for reading, would love to hear your opinions in the comments!
Lots of love,