So I’m writing this from my desk at Uni, because I’m officially back in Bristol and term 2 has kicked off. It’s currently the first of two exam weeks, but after that (and reading week) it’s back to business as usual…
Last term was a term of a lot of firsts; first time properly living alone, first seminar, first deadline, first time putting a deposit on a house, and so so many more… I couldn’t be more thankful for the wealth of experiences it provided me with, but with so many firsts it was really a term of finding my feet. I learnt what worked for me: what made me smile, what made me uncomfortable, who I could run to in times of stress and sadness. Yeah I kept up with my work… but mentally, with so much going on, I wasn’t in the most efficient work mindset.
Every new term I set myself a bunch of unattainable goals and I stress out and hate myself a little when I don’t complete them. So this year, I’m setting myself one goal Uni-wise, which sort of acts as a root that everything else will branch off of. This term, I want to take better care of myself. I’m a very anxious person and it’s so easy for me to get wrapped up in the lives of those around me. As someone who used to spend a lot of time upset, I spend so much time trying to please others, and to make sure that everybody else is okay that I forget to look after my own mental well-being. As part of my work to make 2017 an overall more positive year for me (which I explain in my post Project 2017) I want to take better care of myself.
How am I going to do that? I don’t quite know yet, I’m slowly finding things that are working for me; I’m organising my thoughts on this blog, I’ve been working on liking myself more as a person, and I’ve been spending less time on my phone (plan to give an update on the whole phone free thing at the end of this month). It’s only been a week or so, but already things that used to stress me out haven’t got to me as much, so I’m hoping it will only be upwards from here.
If you find yourself feeling sad, stressed or anxious, whether it’s all the time or just every once in a while, find a way to deal with it that works for you. I can’t control my emotions completely, but I am trying to take back as much control as I can. We often forget how important mental health is, at every stage of our lives, so this year, make more of an effort to focus more on you.
Hope your 2017 is filled with more joy!
Lots of love,