So this is my final day of the 12 days of blogging, and I’ve actually really enjoyed the whole experience! When I first started I was convinced I’d miss at least one day, but I’m impressed with how much I’ve stuck to this. In fact, I think blogging consistently for 12 days has really helped with reigniting my passion for writing.
I was talking to my mum about how I’m back to writing and it made me realise that I’ve come full circle. I went through a really rocky patch at about 14; I changed schools 3 times in one year, I was starting GCSE’s after spending 5 months out of education and I was very behind. I lost all love I had ever had for writing and English and if you had told me I would be studying English Lit at Uni whilst maintaining an internet blog I would have laughed in your face. I was convinced that after GCSE I was never going to go near English Literature again… and then my mum forced me to take it for an AS Level as she was convinced it was my passion. Not going to lie, I was a little mad about it at the time, but it was probably one of the best things she could have done for me.
Things that you’re passionate, truly passionate about, have a really funny way of coming back to you. It got to AS English and I still hated it – couldn’t wait to drop it for A2… and then it was my highest mark. It got to A2, and this time I knew it was over for good; I’d picked French and Philosophy to study at Uni and I was never going to do English Lit again after school ended. And then it got to results day, I going to study French and Philosophy, and I realised that it really wasn’t what I wanted to do… English had to be in there somewhere. I spent four years pushing away something that I’d centred my life around for the previous 8 years, and it didn’t work.
Here I am, studying English and enjoying writing and I couldn’t be happier with where I’m at at the moment. If anything, the whole thing has taught me that sometimes you need to stop pushing things away and let them embrace you. I put up a fight, but at the end of the day, my raw passion was strong enough to win. It’s funny how things work out sometimes.
Hope you’ve enjoyed these 12 days and I haven’t bothered you too much! Planning to blog twice a week on Wednesdays and Saturdays after this,
Lots of love,